petunjuk

bismillahirrohmanirrohim

Makin banyak aku belajar, makin banyak pendedahan aku tentang sesuatu perkara, especially tentang agama aku sendiri. Dan pendedahan demi pendedahan ini, makin banyak membuatkan aku banyak persoalan, especially tentang agama aku sendiri, again. Persoalan2 ini tanpa sedar membuatkan aku mula menilai agama aku dari pandangan yang berbeza arah, bukan sahaja dari arah pandang seorang born-muslim-in-a-muslim-family-living-in-a-muslim-country. Namun sebaliknya. Terkadang, ada persoalan yang, kalau aku belum dapat jumpa jawapan, aku gelisah, sebab ia membabitkan aqidah atau ada potensi untuk mewujudkan misconception in Islam. Namun Alhamdulillah, sebelum trigger2 (baca: trigger bukan tiger) ini terjadi, aku didedahkan dan dididik oleh mereka2 utk tidak takut bertanya apabila tidak faham, atau meragui sesuatu, dengan niat ingin belajar dan memahami. Dalam Islam, semua perkara ada jawapan, direct atau indirect. Dan kdg2, ada soalan yang belum aku dapati jawapannya, kerana kekurangan masa menggalinya, dan aku minta pd Tuhan utk tetapkan aku dlm jalan yang lurus sampai hembusan nafas terakhir. Serious beb, kadang2 risau, sbb kadang2 mula ter-overdominated persoalan yg aku rasa dtg drpd setan, dan kehausan mencari jawapan yang mungkin boleh menyebabkan hati berpaling arah dari Tuhan atau mula memandang sinis perkara yg sebenarnya suci. Oleh itu, aku istighfar banyak2, dan aku bersyukur sebab Tuhan masih buat aku sedar.

Dan tadi, sedang aku membaca zikir petang, aku baca sekali maknanya. Selalunya sebelum ini baca shj ayat Arabic tanpa belek makna dari kertas sbb tak sempat and dah tahu dah maksudnya. Tapi tadi, Alhamdulillah ada masa lebih, and nak feel lagi berzikir pd Tuhan, aku baca translation. Dan dalam pembacaan tu, kali ni aku rasa penghayatan yg lain macam. Aku rasa, Tuhan sedang beri aku jawapan dan ketetapan hati dalam jihad aku.

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(Al-Baqarah:1-5)

Alif, Laam, Miim.

Kitab Al-Quran ini, tidak ada sebarang syak padanya (tentang datangnya dari Allah dan tentang sempurnanya); ia pula menjadi petunjuk bagi orang-orang yang (hendak) bertaqwa;

Iaitu orang-orang yang beriman kepada perkara-perkara yang ghaib, dan mendirikan (mengerjakan) sembahyang serta membelanjakan (mendermakan) sebahagian dari rezeki yang Kami berikan kepada mereka.

Dan juga orang-orang yang beriman kepada Kitab "Al-Quran" yang diturunkan kepadamu (Wahai Muhammad), dan Kitab-kitab yang diturunkan dahulu daripadamu, serta mereka yakin akan (adanya) hari akhirat (dengan sepenuhnya).

Mereka itulah yang tetap mendapat petunjuk dari Tuhan mereka, dan merekalah orang-orang yang berjaya.

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Tuf Tuf Tuf ! macam kena tembak tepat kat hati, tapi impact dia bukan menyakitkan, tapi menenangkan. Bayangkan hati itu macam air, ayat2 dan kefahaman ayat2 ini macam peluru yang masuk dalam air tu. Peluru tu macam kena telan, dipeluk air. Bila aku sebut kena tembak, aku tak maksudkan kesakitan, cuma aku nak gambarkan ketepatan tembakan tu yang terus zup, mengena! Ha mcm tu kot apa aku rasa.

Selagi kau berpegang utuh pada tali Allah, sumber yang benar, dari Al-Quran dan sunnahnya, engkau akan berada di jalan yang benar, Farah Nabilah.

Lepas tu aku rasa (personal punya rasa dan opinion), sebab tu KOT, Allah letakkan di awalnya perkataan ‘alif, laam mimm’ directly sebelum 4 ayat tersebut, its like, kenapa dlm byk2 explanation, Allah explain tentang perkara ini selepas perkataan 'alif laam mimm' itu sendiri? kenapa explanation psl ni dan bukan psl lain?  Ayat yang meng-explain tentang keyakinan pd agama Allah, yg akan buat kau TETAP BERADA di jalan yang lurus. Aku rasa, mungkin Allah sengaja susun begitu untuk tunjuk yang, tahap tinggi mana pon kau study, tinggi gunung ke, tinggi awan ke, tinggi matahari ke, kau takkan pernah dan takkan mampu, discover maksud ‘alif, laam mimm’ tu sendiri.

Hence, that indicates: tahap tinggi mana pon kau cuba nak faham sesuatu perkara, kau cuba nak berhujah sana sini, kau takkan mampu mengubah kebenaran agama Allah swt.

Wallahua’alam

kereta, motor, basikal, lori, van, unta, kuda, kapal torobang, and you name it.

bismillahirrohmanirrohim.

 here again! just wanna share a bit about something that is interesting to me and what i babbled to my kids (a.k.a. adik hehe):

okay, kita semua sure pernah naik kenderaan kan?

baca doa naik kenderaan kan?

bacaa....

gooodd

they are:

سُبْحَانَ الَّذِي سَخَّرَ لَنَا هَذَا وَمَا كُنَّا لَهُ مُقْرِنِينَ وَإِنَّا إِلَى رَبِّنَا لَمُنْقَلِبُونَ

which means:

Glory be to Him who has brought this under our control whereas we were unable to control it. Surely we are to return to Him.

(Surah Zukhruf)

ok, baca doa ini, zahirnya kt fhm ia mewujudkan rasa syukur dan rendah diri, bcs verily, kalau bukan Allah swt lah yang mengizinkan kenderaan itu bergerak, dan merezekikan ia pada kita, memang takkan bergerak lah kan? boleh jadi tiba2 dia breakdown. kalau zaman dulu pula, kenderaannya haiwan spt unta. kalau unta tu degil tak mahu jalan, tak berjalan lah unta tersebut kan? sekali dgn kita2 terbantut perjalanan. kat situ, kita fhm.

tapi pernah terfikir tak, kenapa, dlm byk2 ayat, Allah pilih ayat ini utk mengakhiri doa ini:

"Surely we are to return to Him"

 au  

 "dan sesungguhnya kami akan kembali kpd Tuhan kami" ?

can you sense, that there is something significant and deep there. As if, Allah makes that very verse as the last sentence so that we are all reminded, about the death that is coming. of course, death can happen anywhere, but outside there, is a world where danger is everywhere. There IS possibility of robbery, accident or any bad things to happen on us during the journey which might go to the extend of death. of course, nauzubillahiminzaalik. but im just saying, there IS possibility.

even not by any unpreferable (is that even a word? ohmyenglish!) cause of death, whenever we are on a journey, we are leaving home, or either going home. we are not in a "safe" or "permanent" place. and so, with that verse being recited at the end of the duaa, may we all feel, as soon as we are starting our journey, AANYWHERE we are going, feel that death is coming AANYTIME.

by having the reminder of death, insyaAllah we'll be reminded to safeguard our imann, control our "over dose of excited-ness" throughout the journey and anything that may keep us away from Him.

kadang2 bila baca, i felt: instead of menuju ke tempat yang nak dituju, sebenarnya diri sedang menuju ke arah kematian. dan memang seolah2 Allah nak ingatkan yg, YOU ARE indeed on your journey to death girl. 

huuuuu muhasabah diri muhasabah diri.

so yes, jgn lupa baca doa naik kenderaan, and FEEL it!

moga Allah mudahkan kt, utk menjaga iman kt, di mana saja kt berada. insyaAllah..

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 Sharing His Grace: This, i believe:

V I S I, jatuh tang mana visi kita na?

bismillahirrohmanirrohim.



1. di sini sy ingin berkongsi sedikit, satu perkara menarik drpd apa yg sy pelajari drpd sebuah talk "How To Master Your Habits" (2/03/13, IIUM)

2. ianya berkanaan dgn VISI. ye, VISI.

3. kata Felix Y. Siauw, visi itu terbahagi kpd 3 iaitu:

• VISI MATA
• VISI AKAL
• VISI DALIL

4. di sini sy akan menjelaskan makna visi2 ini, utk siapa, dan tahap2 nya.

5. VISI MATA. visi ini adalah visi yg PALING mudah. dan visi ini adalah utk org biasa. kerana visi ini terdorong daripada mata yang melihat akan hasilnya,  maka makin mudah utk yakin. tp pd masa yg sama, hasilnya hanya terbatas pada pandangan mata.

6. contoh: sejujurnya sy tak ingat contoh yg diberikan tp sy buat contoh sendiri drpd pemahaman sy (hehehe hopefully betul) : bila si A nampak si B menggunakan duit untuk membeli bunga, jadi si A tahu yg dia juga harus ada duit utk dapatkan bunga, dia NAMPAK hasil drpd duit itu, jadi si A mempunyai visi utk mencari duit hasil dari MATA nya yg lihat outcome duit.


7. VISI AKAL. visi ini masih dalam kategori mudah tapi 'up' sikit drpd visi mata kerana kali ini, visi ini bukan hanya perlukan mata, tapi juga perlukan akal. visi ini adalah utk pengusaha.

8. contoh: kalau dahulu, air mineral tidak dipaketkan, ia diambil dari air terjun or where ever it belongs. dan telah wujudnya si pengusaha yang menggunakan akal memikirkan ttg masa depan, lantas bertindak untuk melakukan bisnes 'pembotolan' air mineral walaupun tidak terlihat oleh mata akan hasilnya (berjaya atau tidak). namun dengan akal, dia memikirkan, faedah yg ia bkl memudahkan ramai orang, dan sbb 'jam2' yg bakal berlaku, maka dia mencari peluang yg difikirkan bakal menghasilkan untung. visi ini tak nampak dek mata, namun tercapai dek akal (or should i just say, make sense ;)


7. VISI DALIL. ye, ini lah visi yg PALING SUSAH sekali utk dilakukan. sebab, visi ini, tak nampak dek mata, tak tercapai dek akal, TAPI diyakini dengan dalil. visi ini utk, jeng jeng jengg, ahli syurga (!)

8. contoh: ketika perisitwa Isra' dan Mikraj, mana mungkin ternampak dek mata dan tercapai dek akal akan informasi yang, seorang manusia, dalam masa hanya 3/4 malam shj (dr 6 malam-6 pagi), telah "terbang" dari Masjidil Haram hinggalah ke Masjidil Aqsa, dan kemudian, dari bumi hingga lah ke langit ke -7 (dn seterusnya). namun, krn bicara ini datangnya dari Rasululullah saw, yg menjadi dalil utk kepercayaan umat Islam, maka Abu Bakr r.a. terus yakin, terus terima. ia dikatakan sukar, kerana ia hanya boleh diyakini, dengan iman serta kepercayaan yang mantap pada Allah swt.


9. by this, bukan lah bererti mata dan akal itu tidak penting untuk mendapatkan keyakinan. indeed, they are. as Allah swt has mentioned in surah Al-Mukminun, ayat 78,

"Dan Dia lah jua yang mengadakan bagi kamu pendengaran dan penglihatan serta hati (untuk kamu bersyukur; tetapi) amatlah sedikit kamu bersyukur."

(dlm ayat ini Allah swt menjelaskan yg walaupun dalil2 cukup byk, namun org kafir tetap ingin mengingkari, mrk tidak bersyukur)

9. di sini, sy lebih nak point out yang, kadang2 dalam hidup ini, kerap kali sgt (nampak tu. dah kerap kali, sgt lagi. nmpk betapa kerap kali dan sgt nya di situ? ehe. ok jgn nakal, betulkan ),  kerap kali kt ingin melakukan sesuatu, yg cepat kt nampak hasilnya, atau mudah kt fikirkan hasilnya. jadi kt lebih terkejar2 kan perkara2 itu berbanding dgn mengejar perkara2 yang ada jaminan dan janji drpd Allah swt sendiri, yg kadang tidak nampak dek mata, tidak tercapai dek akal, tapi diyakini dgn hati (iman).

10. sedangkan ia janji dr Allah, Yang memberi segala hasil itu sendiri.

11. hemah saya, mungkin kerana kt (termasuk diri sy) jarang2 sekali, menggunakan telinga, mata dan akal untuk memahami dan mempelajari dalil2 ini, sehingga ia tersemat dalam diri, hingga lumat dan SEBATI.

12. despite all the hardships, pains and struggles, mari lah kt sama2 usaha, agar visi dalil, terus2 an menjadi visi hidup kita.

13. lagi pun kan Kekasih Agung kt sudah beritahu dlm surah Al-Balad, ayat 4

"Sesungguhnya Kami telah jadikan manusia sentiasa dalam keadaan menghadapi kesulitan dan kesukaran (jasmani dan rohaninya)"

14. Allah swt gunakan perkataan, 'insaan', atau 'manusia' dlm ayat ini, to say that SETIAP manusia itu memang diciptakan berada dalam susah payah. Allah swt tak guna pon perkataan 'aamanu' atau 'org yg beriman' shj dlm ayat ini, tapi UTK SEMUA JENIS MANUSIA. krn hakikatnya, dlm hidup ini, setiap manusia ada masalah, whether you are a believer or not.

15. setiap manusia harus bersusah payah memikirkan masa depannya, bagaimana nak cari duitnya, bagaimana nak penuhi keperluan dirinya, tempat nak sambung belajarnya dan macam2 lah!

16. yang bezanya hanya lah, di akhir perjalanan itu: sama ada penat lelah kita menghadapi segala susah payah dlm hidup di dunia ini: berbaloi atau tidak. itu je.

17. memang sudah lumrah alam kan, yg terbaik itulah yg paling susah. makanya,

18. visi dalil, visi paling susah, tapi paling berbaloi bah!

"May Allah bestows us the strength and conviction to fulfill our vision, and our very reason of being created here in this world, and may that He guides, accepts and be pleases with all the efforts" aminn

AND THAT TO YOUR LORD, IS THE FINAL GOAL (53:42) 

this, i believe

keras umpama batu

" kau tahu apa maksud sedih utk aku?

Sedih tu bukanlah bila air mata aku jatuh, tak. instead, bagi aku, benda tu lah bahagia. 
Dan sedih adalah apabila air mata aku tak dapat tumpah, tak berjaya menitis. Ya, itu sedih. Sebab masa tu, aku rasa hati aku dah macam batu.

Hati keras. macam batu.

Pada masa yg sama, byk batu2 kecil lain (sakit, ujian, pengajaran etc) yg dibalingkan pada hati yang batu tu.
Kau rasa bila batu kena batu, sakit tak?
Sakit.
Dan paling sakit, bila batu2 kecil tu tak berjaya sampai ke sudah utk melembutkan hati itu. 
Dibaling, sakit, dan terpelanting.
Dibaling lagi, sakit dan terpelanting lagi.

SEDIH!

Waktu2 begini, seksa.
Sebab segala kesakitan itu tidak dapat disalur keluar melalui air mata utk ia mengalir keluar.

Tuhan, berikan aku hati yg baru.
Tuhan, berikan aku hati yg baru.
Tuhan, berikan aku hati yg baru.




-Ya, hati yg baru. 
Hati yg kini lembut. Umpama air.
Yang bila batu2 kecil melontar, pup!
Batu2 kecil itu dapat diserap air
Ia tidak terpelanting keluar
Ia terus masuk dan masuk
Mengisi apa yg perlu diisi
Menghilangkan kosong

Dan terkadang, mungkin, utk dapatkan hati yg baru umpama air itu, perlu rasa hati yg keras umpama batu dulu. Sebab dgn hati keras tu lah, tgn menadah doa dgn pengharapan yg mendalam pd Si Pemilik Hati, utk menukarkan hati.

Dan dgn air mata yg Tuhan rahmatkan pada diri, baru lah 'si batu' berubah menjadi 'si air'.

Bagaimana nak benar2 rasa nikmat dan bahagia hati lembut umpama air kalau tak pernah rasa derita hati keras umpama batu. betul?

Sebagaimana:

• Bagaimana nak tahu erti bahagia, kalau tak pernah tahu erti sengsara?
• Bagaimana nak kenal putih, kalau tak kenal hitam?
• dan kalau tiada struggle, mcm mana nak rasa nikmat berjaya slps susah tu.

Betul? :) "

Terkadang, 

Allah swt sengaja men-delay- tangisan itu,

sbb Allah swt ada waktu yg istimewa yg Dia rancang, 

hanya utk kt dan Dia. 

-Gadis

-August 8, 2013

learn to let go farah, or you will never see the fate flow. seriously!





fine

when inferiority embraces the soul

1)  kenapa eh? kadang2 rasa jealous dgn org yg hebat2, or should i say, terlalu 'suci', dan maju?

rasa tak boleh pon nak baca apa dorang post though benda2 tu benda baik.

rasa mcm, i just couldn't be that good. 

rasa mcm, come on man, i'm stuck in here. with all these tests, i just don't know if i can ever reach to that level. though how many times i've worked for it. i keep on doing mistakes. am i not smart enough to make decision in life? or am i that weak?

inferiority embraces my soul. 

i know, different people different stories. tapi....

*jeeeeeeng* the other side of Farah Nabilah muncul 

2)   Farah Nabilah Abdul Rahman, dgr sini syg.

Allah swt, has different plans for different people. and each of His plans, is perfect for all people.

Different people have different stories as they have different upbringings, different surroundings, different kind of "tarbiyyahs", different kind of families, different kind of friends, and just different colours of LIFE!

and so thus, how Allah swt judge them. based on what they have been through. based on the choices they make on what they are left with. based on their efforts in their own situation. based on their very own levels. based on their very own colours of life.

you cannot compare yellow with purple. of course they are different!
even in the colour of yellow itself, has different tones.
ada yang terang sikit, ada yang gelap sikit, ada yg mcm oren sikit, ada yang, macam2 ada lah!

do everything sincerely because of Allah swt, with your best, in your very own colour of life.


don't compete with others, but compete with yourself.
that's how you'll genuinely win. 
by comparing you, with none other than yourself.
and you'll win, over yourself.
in your very own quest to gain His pleasure :) 

and one thing to be told frh, achievement is actually a process. it's not like, you've reached to that level, and you've succeeded. no, it's a process, and it will never stop, until the end of your breath.

3)  a friend once gave me an analogy.

it's like, there are 2 people. having the same destination.

one is running, and running hastily to the destination. unfortunately, bcs of the hastiness, he keeps on falling. and he keeps on feeling tired. to an extend he might just lose himself, or lose hope. bcs he does things out of his ability. what more sad is that he didn't get to appreciate the beauty of the surroundings along the journey.

another person, going to the same destination, he walks steadily towards it. this person, walking his best in his own ability, has less tendency to lose himself or hope because even if he falls, the impact is not as that punishing, and what more blessed is that he is able to appreciate the beauty of surroundings along the journey. 

4)  so yes, i know its good to compare ourselves with others in the sense so that we can reflect back and ponder, but know yourself, your own ability, your own strength and weaknesses, your own history and know your own colour. do your very best, in your very own colour of life.

5)   CONCLUSION :
DO NOT COMPETE WITH OTHERS. BUT COMPETE WITH YOURSELF. 

      AND REMEMBER, EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE ABLE TO DO, IS NOT YOU.

     IT'S ALLAH'S HELPS AND MERCY BESTOWED UPON YOU.

OKAY?

:)

  p/s: not to mention, with all the differences, different people have different tests :)

in a second thought, differences are beautiful actually. as that is what makes us support each other. maybe i wont be able to reach that high in that colour, but biiznillah, i know i can reach to the best level in this colour, and i'll pray that Allah will make it easy for me to help others who are in the similar colour of life as mine, be it similar completely or partially, or even patches-ly? ahaks. so now everyone has their own scopes in their own colours of this whole life. 

and there you go, the rahmatan lil-alaminn, with their Lord's Wisdom and Greatness, are now spreading around. 

Mr. Imann.

Whenever we feel like our imann is almost drowning: As if,

• We keep on swimming, but we just don’t arrive at the bay. When we feel tired, we blow the whistle.

• We keep on blowing the whistle but none is still able to help, or even hear our call for help.

That’s just how our imann feel. And when we feel this way:

My advice is, keep on swimming. And keep on blowing the whistle.

Beyond that, keep.on.believing.

• By keep on swimming, I mean: keep on struggling and continue, doing good deeds though deep down in our heart, despite all the good things we have done, we don’t know when will our imann feel what it used to feel before, when will our imann get the boost as how it used to have before. When, can actually, that transparent void in our heart can really be filled. Or I should say, arrive at the bay. We could hardly see. So do what we can do: swim some more.

• By keep on blowing the whistle, I mean: keep on reaching out for help. We may, listen to the lecture of our favorite educator, read books or articles that are related, find the surrounding that would help, if we need to migrate for a while, then just give it a go. This is a serious matter man. Bak kata org, soal hidup mati. Hidup mati apa? Hidup mati hati. We are with the mission to save our imaan, to save our heart. So just keep on blowing the whistle, we would never know if the 101 times is the number of blowing it takes before help comes. in any form it comes.

And way beyond, keep on believing.

• By keep on believing, I mean: before we can actually continue to struggle with the swimming, to struggle with the blowing, we must first have faith to Him who is The Only One who can give us the strength and hope in our toil of swimming and blowing the whistle.

• By having faith, I mean: that strong conviction and constantly making duaa. Because.He.listens. And indeed, He loves to listen to His slaves, asking help from Him as His Absolute Mercy is just beyond, everything. He WILL help. Just, as long as we believe. Didn't "Allah says, I am as My slave thinks of Me" (saheeh bukhari)

He also mentioned that

“And when My servants ask you about Me, I Am near; I answer the call of the caller when he calls on Me. So let them answer Me, and have faith in Me, that they may be rightly guided.” (2:186)

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My dear friends, He is indeed near, AND *remark this people* RESPONSIVE (!) 

Patient is all we need.

Because the greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising every time we fall.

Though how bad the falling condition is.
Though how exhausting it feels to fall, and keep on falling.
Though how long it takes to rise up again.

Just.never. give.up.

His Mercy is beyond our toil, our worries, our everything.


so yes: Believe with a strong believe

           Make duaa

           Swim, and swim some more

           Need help? Blow the whistle. 

*O Allah, when I or the one who is reading this, lose hope, please make us remember that...

 Your Love is absolutely greater than our disappointment*