Alhamdulillah, yesterday went very well.
from Being Me conference to a wedding reception of a friend.
and the only friend of mine who has get married at this age, alhamdulillah. barakallahulakum!
somehow i feel like there are so much of insights and learning in every seconds Allah granted me with yesterday subhanaAllah.
i feel like Allah is answering me and keep on answering for doubts and worries i have even to the trivials one. though i feel like my life is sorts of 'stagnant' these days as i know how active and -not-a-girl-who-can-sit-still-doing-dothing- i was before (and will always be insyaAllah), i actually feel there are lots i've learned through all this. yes, all.
those things i really learn are hard to share hahaha.
but just so you know, a friend of mine said regarding among one of the hard decisions he made in life. when he make that decision, its a decision where your brain says no, but your heart says yes. like eating Maggi, you know that its not a good consumption but you still insists of eating it. so he follows what he thinks is right (he left the maggi of course) and its a phase where, its no longer about making a right decision but making a decision right.
masyaAllah its a great advice. but there are also phase in life where, your brain says no, your heart says yes, and sometimes they switch, and you just don't know anymore, and you speak to Allah, you keep on speaking to Him, for only He knows whats your worries, your thoughts, your struggles, your doubts, your need, your everything, only He knows, and when you supplicate to Allah, listen. focus and listen to His answer or answerS.
some people, its very easy for them and i do envy that masyaAllah, pray that i could be among them insyaAllah. but some, it gonna requires some times, thoughts, words, advises, and all kind of insights. you have things that you are worrying especially when it comes about your imaan. whatever people advises you, listen, take whats good but don't focus too much on how they will perceive you because you yourself know whats you are in, how you are feeling, and you are struggling to do the best that you can.
so you see, don't be sad. it might be hard, but take the positive sides of it. before you get that confident, keep on supplicating, as He will keep on answering you, and there will be so much for you to learn there, insyaAllah.
and one more, DON'T THINK THAT OTHERS ARE MORE BLESSED THAN US. INDEED EVERYONE IS BLESSED, ONLY IN DIFFERENT WAYS.
happy learning! :)