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Tuesday, February 11, 2014

when ego is challenged at its core

He still remember this discussion

Apa contoh org yg sombong?

Org yg berasa dirinya bagus, memandang rendah pada org lain etc etc.

Tiba2 ada seorg manusia bersuara 'Betul. Dan lg satu contoh, org yg x mahu melakukan sesuatu sebab tak nak manusia lain melihat kekurangan atau kesilapannya. ITU PON KATEGORI ORG SOMBONG'

Uit. Lain ni. Dan apsal mcm terasa kat hati ni? Ouch bunyinya. -He

He understood now. He used to be so called perfectionist and was afraid to start something especially those that would make himself apparent or noticeable (though its a good thing) as he was afraid if people sees him committing mistakes. He was afraid of letting people sees his flaws. Even what he intended to do and be involved in are good stuffs.

And now that he have learned, step by step, he started to build the strength of letting people sees him, as how he is. It's a long and refreshing journey though. Inferiority complex, low self-esteem, are not something that can be solved with one counselling session. It requires will, bravery, time, effort, social-support system and most importantly, meaningful knowledge and answers of dilemmas and anxieties.

He learned to respect those who have the sincerity, bravery and humility to keep on doing good things, yet are open for criticisms and improvements. Yet, understand to value his own self-esteem despite mistakes that he might commit and flaws that people might see.

And he also learned, that if it is not because of Allah swt, he would never grab the meaning of sacrifisation, sincerity, bravery and humility.

Tattoo-ed this learning process in his heart and mind, now and always.

May Allah bless him and those who were with him throughout his quest, in meeting Him, his Life Savior. Ameen.