and this is Dr Nadjet Aknouche, our beloved enthusiastic supportive lecturer.
i have always love the class and participate as the discussion is very interesting (Islam AND psychology) and Dr. Nadjet keeps on encouraging us to give out our opinions, together helping each other in solving the problems we have with psychology according to Islamic perspectives. its quite philosophical actually, but, i just love it. we talk about soul, freewill and stuffs. reading articles of these philosophical thingy were an eye-opener. masyaAllah, how Allah has grant those who have the ability to explain all those complicated theories and philosophies in a very beautiful structure and flow that a layman like me can understand em.
we just know that we are going to miss that class, very much.
as we were hugging, thanking each other today, she suddenly whispered to me..
"i wish to have a daughter like you"
i am far far far far VERY FAR, daripada layak.
This meaningful sentence has strike me right in the deep spot of my heart and i just cannot describe the impact this sentence has made on my heart, my self-worth and my whole self. MasyaAllah, how can i not be grateful when Allah swt has continuously shows me that His Mercy and Love is beyond everything. Beyond the sins we've made, beyond the mistakes we've committed, beyond the tears we've rolled out. i mean, come on, we all know our flaws, we know the wrong things we've done before, and i don't know about others, but i do understand the feeling when you just lost yourselves, feel all hopeless, worthless, that no tears or regret may allow you to reverse the time for you to fix everything all over again.
you feel no difference than:
to rise, fix and mend a broken shattered life, value and heart was never easy. yet, it is never impossible. and indeed, it is always, possible. ALWAYS.
didn't Allah says "...God does not change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves..." (13:11) and to motivate you oh sinners, Allah hears you, Allah understands you, Allah is always there for you, Allah tells u, "...O My servants who have transgressed against themselves: do not despair of God’s mercy, for God forgives all sins. He is indeed the Forgiver, the Clement.” (39:53)
"Except for those who repent, and believe, and do good deeds. These—God will replace their bad deeds with good deeds. God is ever Forgiving and Merciful. Whoever repents and acts righteously—has inclined towards God with repentance." (25: 70-71)
believe me my dear friends, from every wound there's a scar, tells a story, a story that says, i survived. and that will NEVER happened without the Mercy of the Lord. so say Alhamdulillah, and never give up. keep on struggling and fighting. no one can tell u the sweetness of the struggle unless you taste it by yourself. please, choose to make the rest of your life, the best of you life, lillahita'ala.
and, this is for you, abah and ibu :')
p/s- what i am sharing does not indicates that i have achieved my self-actualize and have win this struggle or have achieve success but i'm sharing because i'm just astonished with Allah swt's Mercy and Wisdoms and i am merely sharing not for others to make my story as an example, but im sharing with the hope that the one who reads this or may have feel all these know that someone is surviving, and to enlighten that you can only achieve your self-actualization, your supreme peace and tranquility when you live this life for the sake of Allah swt. :)
“...My prayer and my worship, and my life and my death, are devoted to God, the Lord of the Worlds." (Q. 6:162)