bila kita mengejar, masa yang berputar

Assalamualaikum semua :) semua yg sudi membaca sebuah blog yg sedang ditimbuni habuk dan debu2, takpe, mari kita tiup ia bersama. dan setelah bersih ia, harapnya dapat kita lihat sesuatu yg dapat memberikan makna.

kali ni rasanya ana nak menulis seolah2 ana berbicara, boleh?

skrg ni ana selalu blaja kat musolla kat blok ana tu, lepas pg seminar kefahaman Islam from kakak2 Gombak dekat situ. masa tu hari ahad pagi. so tghari tu, lepas makan, ana pon terus je mcm, eh, blaja je lah kat sini. dan Alhamdulillah, seronok je blaja kat situ. sunyi, dan menenangkan. sesekali ana ambil wuduk dan mengaji kat situ. dah rasa mcm kat bilik sendiri pula. sbb kat dlm surau mmg ada tandas. dan sebab itu pon mmg musolla utk muslimah shj so cara pemakaian mmg macam dlm dorm lah. sgt selesa. masa bersilih ganti, pd waktu petang dan malam dan wktu2 berikutnya, ana pon mmg akan pg situ lah bila nak study. sebab ada midterm exam isnin selasa rabu. and masa tu baru lah ana tahu sbnrnya ramai je yg study kat situ. suasanya tidak lah setenang hr ahad yg lalu tp takpe, ana still seronok je blaja situ sbb mmg dpt focus, kalau dlm dorm tuu, hm bergelak ketawa je lah ana ni jawabnya.

sehinggalah smpai pd suatu ptg di mana dlm musolla tu ada dlm 4 ke 5 org je lah yg blaja. masa tu, ana tgh buat revision political science ke history, ana tak pasti. dan ada sorang muslimah ni, pakai earphone dan baca buku. ada juga yg sedang baring dan mnghafal. ana pon teruskan bacaan. tiba2 masuk lah dua org muslimah ni. kedengaran bahasa yg mereka gunakan utk berbicara ialah bahasa english, mereka sgt fluent. dr situ ana boleh agak bhsa itu mmg bhsa perbualan harian mereka. penekanan di situ bukanlah penilaian baik buruk bahasa itu namun the 'language view the social reality of its speakers' by Sapir-Whorf hypothesis. ana rasa bimbang mlihat mereka yg hanya mgenakan baju kpd baju kurung. tanpa kain. mereka berjalan, berbual dan bergelak ketawa seolah2 tiada siapa di situ dan terus pg kat kwn dia, muslimah yg memakai earphone td.

mereka berbual. dgn suara yg kuat.

"mungkin nak ckp kejap je kot" bisik si hati

mereka menyambung pula dgn gelak ketawa,

"haih..."

mereka mula melabuhkan badan, melunjurkan kaki dan scra tidak sngja,

"Astaghfirullahalazimm" ana terlihat apa yg tidak patut ana lihat.

marah sgt rasanya. tidak wujudkah rasa malu? ana juga perasan beberapa muslimah yg lain terlihat aurat saudara kami sndiri yg tidak patut kami lihat. ini surau ya anti.

tidakkah anti menggunakan mata yg dikurnia Allah smpai tak perasan ke ada byk manusia lain kat sekeliling anti yg sedang dlm posisi tu? tak terjana kah oleh minda anti tentang apa pndangan org lain tntg anti? tidakkah wujud perasaan hormat pd org sekeliling? kalau tidak pon, hormat lah pd surau ni.

marah marah. buku yg dipegang diletakkan ke lantai. geram. otak tidak dpt lagi fokus pada pembelajaran. suara mereka yg bingit, hilaian yg melalaikan, hilangnya rasa hormat pd org di sekeliling, mereka ke hulu ke hilir, keluar masuk tandas dan surau sbb bilik mereka mmg betul2 blkg surau tu. seolah2 tempat tu mereka yg punya.

"guys, i need to study" kdengaran suara kawan mrk yg blajar sblm mrk dtg tu

"ya, just study. dont need to entertain us here"

"but i need to be alonneee"

"okaayyy, we're not goin to bother you. just study"
"ya, see, you are alone now. dont talk to me" *playing with phone*

but that muslimah yg nak study still tak dpt apa yg dia nak. yelah, lps tu tetiba sorang ni cite benda ni lah pastu gelak lah and so on. smpai 2 kali tau that muslimah yg nak blaja kena mention kat diorng yg dia nak study.

and ana pon mcm, eishhh dia nak study tu so blah laaaa. geramnyaa. ee. sebab masa tu mmg ana dlm proses nak pg tegur ke tak nak sbb mmg ana distracted sgt3. dgn pkaian yg menampakkan aurat diorang kat ana nya. and ana rasa muslimah2 lain yg tgh study kat situ pon mmg bengang la.

tgh diorang gelak2 tu, tiba2 ana pon bangun, and pg kat diorang

"excuse me sisters, can u pls slow down yr voice bcs some ppl are studying here. and btw sister, its kind of unappropriate for you to wear like this in musolla, you know, and it also effect us who saw yr aurat. pls respect the musolla its for everyone's use"

"ah? hello, this is not your musolla"

"ya. and its not yours either"

"go to the library"

"go to hell"


tekejut tak?

okay. that is now what had happened. i just come with the 'go to hell' while writing this just now. sorry. maybe relieve stress dpt habis 3 paper. but i did planned on saying the previous dialogues. i just dont have the guts. but deep in my self, i really really really want to tegur them.

and this time, for real, i stood up, walked with idk, what kind of spirit that got into me and i said

"excuse me sisters, can u pls slow down yr voice a lil bit, bcs, we are stdyng here, so, ya.."
"thank you"

*smile*

and go.

fuuuh!

i remembered their expression

okay, kena tegur. staring at each other anddd yah.

i can hear they are saying something but its very not crystal clear but i can guess that they are not so mad or pissed off lah with my words.

so the two of them stood up then walked into their room.

and did not come back again.

truth be told, among all the stories i wanted to share, i dont know why i come up with this story. i think maybe its my first time to really control my self and tegur those group yang, i am familiar with but not very interested in. im not judging. its just my personal opinion. and Alhamdulillah, with Allah's help, they can accept it well. on top of that, the feeling of others muslimah yg nak blaja kat situ on tht time that makes me more confident and drives me to say it.

but then, yang sedihnya,

semalam malam ana study kat sana, its like the whole group of them tgh study kat sana. most of them were focus on the books. i think the same subject tht im taking for the next day. but i did not understand why that same person wear something unappropriate again. and ya, she is not studying pon. talking to the phone. you know, sometimes i overheard her conv, she was cursing and stuffs, ana jadi geram la, ana geram bila tgok diorang buat musolla tu jdi macam 'tempat' utk diorang nak buat pape je diorang nak. kalau for the purpose of studying and doing good things, act properly, okay. iniiii... haish. ana rasa bersalah bila teringat apa yg kakak from Gombak tu kata masa masuk musolla tu. dia rasa mcm tenang je la musolla tu, suci.

tapi sekarang, ada pencemaran yg sdg berlaku!

and ada one of my friend pon cakap, dulu dia selalu juga dtg that musolla, solat ramai2, now dah tak best dah. tgh dok solat tiba2 dgr suara org mengilai lah apa.

hmmm. sedih lah. ana rasa, ana nak tampal notis

COVER YOUR AURAH BETWEEN MUSLIMAH PROPERLY. PLEASE, RESPECT THE MUSOLLA AND OTHER PEOPLE'S PRIORITY. YOUR COORPERATION IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED. THANK YOU :)

ha. kan. mcm tu. kalau tulis bm takut dia pg cari kamus pula ye. hehe.

moga Allah beri saudara2 ku petunjuk..

semua ini hanyalah luahan hati dan perasaan ana, yg rindu sgt pg family yg dah 3 minggu tak jumpa, yg tak sabar nak balik rumah sabtu ni insyaAllah dan buat apa yg ana plan nak buat. byk sgt keinginan! dan byk sgt halangan. harap2 Allah permudahkan urusan ana, dan anda yg membaca. aminn

maaf atas sgla kesalahan ana. segala yg baik itu dtg dr Allah, dan segala yg salah itu dtg dr ana sendiri dan syaitan.

*p/s- ana tak sbar nak post satu video yg membuka mata! nantikan.. (cewah)