when inferiority embraces the soul

1)  kenapa eh? kadang2 rasa jealous dgn org yg hebat2, or should i say, terlalu 'suci', dan maju?

rasa tak boleh pon nak baca apa dorang post though benda2 tu benda baik.

rasa mcm, i just couldn't be that good. 

rasa mcm, come on man, i'm stuck in here. with all these tests, i just don't know if i can ever reach to that level. though how many times i've worked for it. i keep on doing mistakes. am i not smart enough to make decision in life? or am i that weak?

inferiority embraces my soul. 

i know, different people different stories. tapi....

*jeeeeeeng* the other side of Farah Nabilah muncul 

2)   Farah Nabilah Abdul Rahman, dgr sini syg.

Allah swt, has different plans for different people. and each of His plans, is perfect for all people.

Different people have different stories as they have different upbringings, different surroundings, different kind of "tarbiyyahs", different kind of families, different kind of friends, and just different colours of LIFE!

and so thus, how Allah swt judge them. based on what they have been through. based on the choices they make on what they are left with. based on their efforts in their own situation. based on their very own levels. based on their very own colours of life.

you cannot compare yellow with purple. of course they are different!
even in the colour of yellow itself, has different tones.
ada yang terang sikit, ada yang gelap sikit, ada yg mcm oren sikit, ada yang, macam2 ada lah!

do everything sincerely because of Allah swt, with your best, in your very own colour of life.


don't compete with others, but compete with yourself.
that's how you'll genuinely win. 
by comparing you, with none other than yourself.
and you'll win, over yourself.
in your very own quest to gain His pleasure :) 

and one thing to be told frh, achievement is actually a process. it's not like, you've reached to that level, and you've succeeded. no, it's a process, and it will never stop, until the end of your breath.

3)  a friend once gave me an analogy.

it's like, there are 2 people. having the same destination.

one is running, and running hastily to the destination. unfortunately, bcs of the hastiness, he keeps on falling. and he keeps on feeling tired. to an extend he might just lose himself, or lose hope. bcs he does things out of his ability. what more sad is that he didn't get to appreciate the beauty of the surroundings along the journey.

another person, going to the same destination, he walks steadily towards it. this person, walking his best in his own ability, has less tendency to lose himself or hope because even if he falls, the impact is not as that punishing, and what more blessed is that he is able to appreciate the beauty of surroundings along the journey. 

4)  so yes, i know its good to compare ourselves with others in the sense so that we can reflect back and ponder, but know yourself, your own ability, your own strength and weaknesses, your own history and know your own colour. do your very best, in your very own colour of life.

5)   CONCLUSION :
DO NOT COMPETE WITH OTHERS. BUT COMPETE WITH YOURSELF. 

      AND REMEMBER, EVERYTHING THAT YOU ARE ABLE TO DO, IS NOT YOU.

     IT'S ALLAH'S HELPS AND MERCY BESTOWED UPON YOU.

OKAY?

:)

  p/s: not to mention, with all the differences, different people have different tests :)

in a second thought, differences are beautiful actually. as that is what makes us support each other. maybe i wont be able to reach that high in that colour, but biiznillah, i know i can reach to the best level in this colour, and i'll pray that Allah will make it easy for me to help others who are in the similar colour of life as mine, be it similar completely or partially, or even patches-ly? ahaks. so now everyone has their own scopes in their own colours of this whole life. 

and there you go, the rahmatan lil-alaminn, with their Lord's Wisdom and Greatness, are now spreading around.