Mr. Imann.

Whenever we feel like our imann is almost drowning: As if,

• We keep on swimming, but we just don’t arrive at the bay. When we feel tired, we blow the whistle.

• We keep on blowing the whistle but none is still able to help, or even hear our call for help.

That’s just how our imann feel. And when we feel this way:

My advice is, keep on swimming. And keep on blowing the whistle.

Beyond that, keep.on.believing.

• By keep on swimming, I mean: keep on struggling and continue, doing good deeds though deep down in our heart, despite all the good things we have done, we don’t know when will our imann feel what it used to feel before, when will our imann get the boost as how it used to have before. When, can actually, that transparent void in our heart can really be filled. Or I should say, arrive at the bay. We could hardly see. So do what we can do: swim some more.

• By keep on blowing the whistle, I mean: keep on reaching out for help. We may, listen to the lecture of our favorite educator, read books or articles that are related, find the surrounding that would help, if we need to migrate for a while, then just give it a go. This is a serious matter man. Bak kata org, soal hidup mati. Hidup mati apa? Hidup mati hati. We are with the mission to save our imaan, to save our heart. So just keep on blowing the whistle, we would never know if the 101 times is the number of blowing it takes before help comes. in any form it comes.

And way beyond, keep on believing.

• By keep on believing, I mean: before we can actually continue to struggle with the swimming, to struggle with the blowing, we must first have faith to Him who is The Only One who can give us the strength and hope in our toil of swimming and blowing the whistle.

• By having faith, I mean: that strong conviction and constantly making duaa. Because.He.listens. And indeed, He loves to listen to His slaves, asking help from Him as His Absolute Mercy is just beyond, everything. He WILL help. Just, as long as we believe. Didn't "Allah says, I am as My slave thinks of Me" (saheeh bukhari)

He also mentioned that

“And when My servants ask you about Me, I Am near; I answer the call of the caller when he calls on Me. So let them answer Me, and have faith in Me, that they may be rightly guided.” (2:186)

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My dear friends, He is indeed near, AND *remark this people* RESPONSIVE (!) 

Patient is all we need.

Because the greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising every time we fall.

Though how bad the falling condition is.
Though how exhausting it feels to fall, and keep on falling.
Though how long it takes to rise up again.

Just.never. give.up.

His Mercy is beyond our toil, our worries, our everything.


so yes: Believe with a strong believe

           Make duaa

           Swim, and swim some more

           Need help? Blow the whistle. 

*O Allah, when I or the one who is reading this, lose hope, please make us remember that...

 Your Love is absolutely greater than our disappointment*

don't think that others are more blessed than us. indeed everyone is blessed, only in different ways :)

Alhamdulillah, yesterday went very well.

from Being Me conference to a wedding reception of a friend.

and the only friend of mine who has get married at this age, alhamdulillah. barakallahulakum!

somehow i feel like there are so much of insights and learning in every seconds Allah granted me with yesterday subhanaAllah.

i feel like Allah is answering me and keep on answering for doubts and worries i have even to the trivials one. though i feel like my life is sorts of 'stagnant' these days as i know how active and -not-a-girl-who-can-sit-still-doing-dothing- i was before (and will always be insyaAllah), i actually feel there are lots i've learned through all this. yes, all.

those things i really learn are hard to share hahaha.

but just so you know, a friend of mine said regarding among one of the hard decisions he made in life. when he make that decision, its a decision where your brain says no, but your heart says yes. like eating Maggi, you know that its not a good consumption but you still insists of eating it. so he follows what he thinks is right (he left the maggi of course) and its a phase where, its no longer about making a right decision but making a decision right.

masyaAllah its a great advice. but there are also phase in life where, your brain says no, your heart says yes, and sometimes they switch, and you just don't know anymore, and you speak to Allah, you keep on speaking to Him, for only He knows whats your worries, your thoughts, your struggles, your doubts, your need, your everything, only He knows, and when you supplicate to Allah, listen. focus and listen to His answer or answerS.

some people, its very easy for them and i do envy that masyaAllah, pray that i could be among them insyaAllah. but some, it gonna requires some times, thoughts, words, advises, and all kind of insights. you have things that you are worrying especially when it comes about your imaan. whatever people advises you, listen, take whats good but don't focus too much on how they will perceive you because you yourself know whats you are in, how you are feeling, and you are struggling to do the best that you can.

so you see, don't be sad. it might be hard, but take the positive sides of it. before you get that confident, keep on supplicating, as He will keep on answering you, and there will be so much for you to learn there, insyaAllah.

and one more, DON'T THINK THAT OTHERS ARE MORE BLESSED THAN US. INDEED EVERYONE IS BLESSED, ONLY IN DIFFERENT WAYS.

happy learning! :)

.

sorry tumpang 'hujan' jap


hidup itu ujian. 

pernah tak rasa, RASA seperti tersepit dalam keadaan.

nak keluar kot ni, tersepit belah tu

nak keluar kot tu, tersepit belah ni

kering dah air dititis

kering dah otak dikerah

akhirnya, berserah.

haih, lemah kan?

rasa salah konsep pon ada. patut dah memang berserah dari awal.

haih, terserah?

haih.

Ya Sami' Ya Basir Ya A'lim, beri petunjuk, kekuatan dan ketenangan!

aminn

"i wish to have a daughter like you"

today is the last class for subject Islam and Psychology for this sem. sem 2, 2012/2013.

and this is Dr Nadjet Aknouche, our beloved enthusiastic supportive lecturer.

i have always love the class and participate as the discussion is very interesting (Islam AND psychology) and Dr. Nadjet keeps on encouraging us to give out our opinions, together helping each other in solving the problems we have with psychology according to Islamic perspectives. its quite philosophical actually, but, i just love it. we talk about soul, freewill and stuffs. reading articles of these philosophical thingy were an eye-opener. masyaAllah, how Allah has grant those who have the ability to explain all those complicated theories and philosophies in a very beautiful structure and flow that a layman like me can understand em.

we just know that we are going to miss that class, very much.

as we were hugging, thanking each other today, she suddenly whispered to me..

"i wish to have a daughter like you"

Allahuakbar..

*kaku*

i am far far far far VERY FAR, daripada layak.

BUT YET,

This meaningful sentence has strike me right in the deep spot of my heart and i just cannot describe the impact this sentence has made on my heart, my self-worth and my whole self. MasyaAllah, how can i not be grateful when Allah swt has continuously shows me that His Mercy and Love is beyond everything. Beyond the sins we've made, beyond the mistakes we've committed, beyond the tears we've rolled out. i mean, come on, we all know our flaws, we know the wrong things we've done before, and i don't know about others, but i do understand the feeling when you just lost yourselves, feel all hopeless, worthless, that no tears or regret may allow you to reverse the time for you to fix everything all over again.

you feel no difference than:

 mayat.hidup.

to rise, fix and mend a broken shattered life, value and heart was never easy. yet, it is never impossible. and indeed, it is always, possible. ALWAYS.

didn't Allah says "...God does not change the condition of a people until they change what is within themselves..." (13:11) and to motivate you oh sinners, Allah hears you, Allah understands you, Allah is always there for you, Allah tells u, "...O My servants who have transgressed against themselves: do not despair of God’s mercy, for God forgives all sins. He is indeed the Forgiver, the Clement.” (39:53)

read inspirational stories from companions like Umar r.a. maybe, who before embracing Islam, has become the very 'tool' of the death of his own daughter. read on how he survived the feeling of guilt that almost haunt him until Allah saves him.

"Except for those who repent, and believe, and do good deeds. These—God will replace their bad deeds with good deeds. God is ever Forgiving and Merciful. Whoever repents and acts righteously—has inclined towards God with repentance." (25: 70-71)

believe me my dear friends, from every wound there's a scar, tells a story, a story that says, i survived. and that will NEVER happened without the Mercy of the Lord. so say Alhamdulillah, and never give up. keep on struggling and fighting. no one can tell u the sweetness of the struggle unless you taste it by yourself. please, choose to make the rest of your life, the best of you life, lillahita'ala.

and, this is for you, abah and ibu :')

p/s- what i am sharing does not indicates that i have achieved my self-actualize and have win this struggle or have achieve success but i'm sharing because i'm just astonished with Allah swt's Mercy and Wisdoms and i am merely sharing not for others to make my story as an example, but im sharing with the hope that the one who reads this or may have feel all these know that someone is surviving, and to enlighten that you can only achieve your self-actualization, your supreme peace and tranquility when you live this life for the sake of Allah swt. :)

“...My prayer and my worship, and my life and my death, are devoted to God, the Lord of the Worlds." (Q. 6:162)

the selfless relationship

meh nak share sikit ttg sesuatu dgn saudaraku sekalian, walaupun tak kena dgn musim pilihanraya ni.

this is for the unmarried couple i guess

i know, just who am i to rlly understand whtever u guys have been through and stuffs, but still, i wanna share bcs i just believe that there might be ppl out there who would understand or need some words. lets just do the best and let God do the rest.

dalam perhubungan ni, bila matlamat you Allah, you will come to a point where, you dah tak kisah kalau in the end, you tak bersama pon dgn dia. bcs he/she is not ur matlamat. a marriage life, or a rltionship should be a tool to achieve your ultimate goal, His mardhatillah. and how selfless and beautiful that relationship is, you biiznillah akan redho dgn semua yg berlaku. bcs akan ada dalam benak fikiran yang, kalau dgn kebersamaan itu, tidak menjadikan mana2 dari kamu berdua seorang hamba yg lebih soleh/solehah, dan khalifah yg makin berkualiti serta berakhlak mulia, hati you lebih mudah menerima, dan redho lebih mudah digapai. biarlah dia dgn org lain, atau you dgn org lain, selagi mana matlamat itu tercapai. and you ada satu senjata (doa), yg akan buat you rasa yakin. and you ada Tuhan, yang akan buat you rasa tenang. so yes, keep calm, and have faith.

now let me share again, this beautiful poem written by a friend.

Allah is the reason why, 

even in pain, i smile. 

in confusion, i understand.

in betrayal, i trust.

and in fear, i continue to fight.

fighting :)

kisah Gadis

bismillahirrohmanirrohim

si Gadis.

manusia sentiasa mengalami perubahan dalam hidup. manusia sentiasa membuat keputusan dalam hidup. termasuk si Gadis. 

masa Gadis mula2 berubah dulu, Gadis ingat Gadis dah tak payah buat pilihan. Gadis ingat bila Gadis dah berubah, hanya ada satu skema hidup tu je yang betul. so Gadis just perlu ikut je lah. Gadis pilih utk betul2 mengIslamkan diri. tapi Gadis jadi buntu, jadi geram bila Gadis jumpa manusia2 yang tak sama fikrah dgn Gadis, tak sama pendapat dgn Gadis. Gadis rasa, kenapa dalam Islam pon kena ada beza2 skema hidup? contohnya pemakaian. kenapa takde satuuu je cara pemakaian yang betul, tak payah Gadis pening2 fikir nak pakai cmne yang sebenar2nya. tiba2 Gadis dibebani dengan persoalan, muslimah cmne yang aku nak jadi skrg ni? 

Gadis merangkak2 membina jati diri Gadis

ilmu Gadis gali. gali dan gali. hidup Gadis lalui, lalu dan lalu. berliku-liku! 

Gadis masih ingat saat Gadis ceritakan tentang guidelines antara lelaki dan perempuan pd kkk Gadis, Gadis mengamuk dan terluka bila kakak Gadis cakap "Gadis, tolong lah faham, realiti dunia tidak semudah itu!". Gadis anggap kakak Gadis yang tidak faham, susah utk Gadis betul2 decide nak berprinsip bagaimana dan bila Gadis dah buat pilihan, dgn pengetahuan dan pengalaman yg Gadis ada tika itu, Gadis rasa itu pilihan yg paling tepat dan Gadis gembira krn akhiranya berjaya ada prinsip ttg hal yang abstrak ini. so Gadis kecewa bila kkk Gadis respond sedemikian rupa, menolak decision yang punya susah utk Gadis betul2 buat. tapi kini kkk, Gadis faham. ye, dunia realiti, tidak semudah itu.. bukan tentang hal yg dibicarakan itu sahaja, tetapi yang lain juga.

hari demi hari, Gadis dikurniakan Allah satu kesedaran. Gadis ckp dgn diri sendiri. hai Gadis, hai si Gadis yang ayu, deng2 deng2 (tiba2). Gadis ckp dgn diri sendiri. hai Gadis, the 'cabang' part of Islam mestilah kena flexible, sbb Islam tu kan universal. Islam kan utk semua. ingat Islam tu kat Malaysia je ke. its global ok, and different places have different culture, different values and so many other differences. so haruslah ada parts yg flexible so that it can be applied to all people in the world despite the region, culture etc. and this shows how beautiful Islam is actually, when Muslims all over the world can still bergabung atas dasar aqidah yg sama, sources yg sama, Quran and Sunnah. 

(eheh. bila masuk bab Aqidah pon, ada lagi pilihan yg harus dilakukan. tp Alhamdulillah, mungkin disebabkan aqidah ini subjek yang sgt crucial, so bukti2 dan dalil2 serta pendedahan yg didapati, so far Alhamdulillah, jelas, byk memberi pencerahan minda, thus mudah utk Gadis buat keputusan akan mana yg betul2 benar dan patut Gadis pegang.)

tentang perkara2 yg abstrak, Gadis sentiasa hidup dalam dilemma dan penuh persoalan. satu2 cuba Gadis rungkaikan. tiap2 hari Gadis minta petunjuk, taufiq serta hidayah agar Allah bantu Gadis membuat keputusan dalam hidup ni. Gadis tak mampu nak buat keputusan sendiri. seriously. kadang2 Gadis tengok orang lain rilekk je tentang diri dan hidup mereka, buat Gadis rasa, Gadis ni over sgt ke berfikir? knp Gadis kena byk dilemma dan tak macam orang lain yg mudah buat keputusan ttg hidup mrk? dan bila ada keputusan yg dibuat, knp ada keputusan yg x sama, walaupun kt menuju ke matlamat yg sama? ah, macam2! 

kemudian Gadis sedar, Gadis ini, Allah temukan dengan pelbagai jenis manusia. dari manusia jenis A sampai lah ke jenis, R mungkin. (tak rasa sampai ke Z). dan bukan saja ditemukan, tp Allah campakkan sebuah perhubungan dalam hampir setiap manusia yang berbeza jenis ini. jenis di sini bermaksud, prinsip, pegangan hidup, personaliti, pemakaian, persekitaran dan keadaan hidup. daripada pertemuan dengan berbagai manusia ini, dan keadaan diri yang mencari2 ini, itu yang sukar untuk Gadis membuat keputusan untuk dirinya sendiri. sebab kadang2, dalam pilihan keputusan itu, semuanya betul. nak cakap pilih yang terbaik, semuanya boleh jadi terbaik mengikut keadaan manusia tersebut yang berbeda2.

dan akhirnya, pada Tuhan saja lah tempat Gadis mengadu kan segala hal.. kdg2, Gadis rasa ini suatu rahmat dari Tuhan, sebab dalam keadaan buntu, buat Gadis rasa lebih hina dan lemah tika berdoa pd Allah. buat Gadis lebih rasai yg Gadis sgt memerlukan. tiada yang dapat menenang dan membantu selain drpd Dia, Yg Maha Mengetahui, Yg Paling Memahami. buat Gadis rasa, ini sbnrnya, suatu nikmat utk Gadis. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulilah a'la kullihal. buat Gadis belajar yang, musibah yang sebenarnya bukanlah bila ditimpa bala, tetapi bila perkara yang berlaku itu menjauhkan kita drpd Kekasih kita, Allah swt. 

pada masa yang sama, dari sini Gadis belajar tentang judgement

nak ckp psl judgement, Gadis ada buat bahagian2 dia sndiri. ada lebih kurang 5. tapi kali ini, Gadis nak beritahu ttg dua yg berbeza. 

selalunya bila sebut psl judgement, manusia selalu ckp jgn judge manusia based on luaran. dan luaran yang dimaksudkan selalunya refer kpd manusia yang kurang menutup aurat, kurang menjaga adab, kurang mengawasi ikhtilat etc. ye benar, krn kt tidak tahu latar belakang, fahaman dan pendedahan mrk ttg perkara itu semua. tapi pada masa yang sama, jangan juga judge manusia yg terlalu menjaga, terlalu menutup, sebagai 'tertutup'. anda harus berlaku adil. anda nak ckp yg kdg2 mrk membuatkan Islam itu nmpk susah, anda juga tidak mengetahui latar blkg, fahaman dan pendedahan mrk ttg perkara itu semua. mana ada manusia yang dengan mudahnya, saja2 nak berpakaian dan berkelakuan begitu. manusia itu adalah terbatas pemikirannya, dan manusia hanya mampu membuat jwpn yg terbaik berdasarkan ilmu, pengalaman, keadaan dan doa yang dilakukannya. so kat sini, ada 2 jenis luaran yg berbeza, yg dua2 nya kt tak boleh nak simply buat tuduhan or judgement. (except in certain conditions). LETS BE FAIR. and wtv it is, bila kt lihat manusia, setiap manusia adlh guru. bagaiamana pun penampilan mrk, bila mrk buat baik atau betul, kt belajar dengan mencontohi. bila mrk buat jahat atau salah, kt belajar dengan menjauhi. 

to be continue..



kot lah


hehe

another gist of perfect combination in akhlaq ^^,

bismillahirrohmanirrohim

Alhamdulillah, aturan Allah cantik sgt. 

hari ni ada 2 kelas hadis. kelas pertama bljr psl celaan meminta2 kecuali terpaksa and kelas kedua bljr ttg ganjaran mereka yg suka menolong. mcm, a perfect combination. Allah showed the guidelines on perkara2 yg tak boleh minta, waktu and adab yang boleh minta while in the second class, Allah shows ganjaran besarr bagi org2 yg suka menolong. dari sini, mendidik kt utk menjadi seorg yg qonaah (menerima seadanya) dan usaha utk menjadi seorg yg kaya diri dgn tidak byk meminta2 perkara yg tak perlu AND AT THE SAME TIME, menjadi org yg suka menolong, despite org tu minta tolong atau tidak.

kira mcm, kita takmo jadi org yg suka minta2 prkara y tak perlu tp at the same time, seorg yg berbesar hati utk selalu membantu. cantik kan?

tadabbur Quran and hadis2 nabi ni seronok sgt bcs one of it, it helps us to improve our akhlaq bcs they touch and cover the biggest to the smallest matters in our everyday lives.

and everytime bila keluar kelas, i would be like "ok farah, the moment you stepped out from here, this is when the theory applies, this is when you have to practice what you have learned, this is when Allah will test you, and this is when, the jihad begins"

fiuh. doakan saya.

dan dengan suka hatinya, nak share hadis tadi ♥ riwayat Muslim.

p/s- i'll wrote (parenthesis) at the beginning of every points k. do take note! ;)

Dari Abu Hurairah ra., dari Nabi saw., beliau bersabda

"(1)Siapa yang melapangkan satu kesusahan dunia seorang mukmin, nescaya Allah akan melapangkan kesusahan dirinya di hari Kiamat.

(2)siapa yg memudahkan org yg sedang kesulitan nescaya akan Allah mudahkan baginya di dunia dan akhirat.

(3)Siapa yg menutupi aib seorang muslim, maka Allah akan menutupi aibnya di dunia dan akhirat

(4)Allah sentiasa menolong hamba-Nya selama mana hamba-Nya menolong saudaranya.

(5)siapa yg menempuh jalan dalam rangka mencari ilmu, akan Allah mudahkan baginya jalan ke Syurga.

(6)Tidaklah sebuah kaum berkumpul di salah satu rumah (masjid) Allah utk membaca Al-Quran dan mempelajarinya diantara mrk nescaya ketenangan akan diturunkan kpd mereka dan rahmat meliputi mrk, dan malaikat mengelilingi mrk serta Allah sebut2 mrk kpd makhluk di sisi-Nya (subhanaAllah, i feel like crying)

(7) Dan siapa yg lambat amalnya, maka tidak akan dipercepat oleh nasabnya." (yg ni kena ingat selalu supaya dpt trigger kt utk cepat2 lawan si malas bila dia menjenguk huhu)

alright, moga bermanfaat ye! ^^,

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